The Reason

Hoobastank-The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears

That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you, (x4)

    Whenever I get stressed or sad, this is the song I hear over and over again without fail. 50, times, 60 times until I, am resolute and, Im back on my feet ready to give the world a good piece of Wan Aliff. If there was one thing I have learned in this short years is that the reason for any unhappiness is at the end of the day, because of yourself. Not the people around you. When you see something displeasing or morally unright in front of you, You dont start blaming, people around you or keep it in. You accept it as one of your mistakes or as a test from Allah and then you improve yourself.
   Adam Khoo workshop used this song 2 years ago, to motivate us. I did my O levels for my parents, who have taken care of me so well. On the day I got back from the Social Studies paper, I spent the night in the toilet crying, knowing so well that I, have disappointed my parents, though, they keep telling me it is okay. I,had totally screwed the entire paper, far from a pass. That night, I made a promise to myself to kill off the geog paper and I estimated I need about, 90%, for geography to scrape an A2, for the combined subject. nothing, was going to stop me., Nothing. My mum, though dropped out of secondary school, and my dad, who could not make it, into a JC, always told me, I was a miracle to be given so much potential which they never had. My mum, taught me my ABCs, to give me the best headstart, I, could ever ask for :,( and that made me feel so special, and all the more angry and disappointed at myself for not doing well in my studies.
    The amount of work, I, put in, to jump the grades from that 29points in the prelims to be one of the 3 9 As student in my school is, because of my parents. After my geog paper, I came out, the gates, smiling, and though, yes, I, admit I have a bad ego, started, writing the speech I would give to my juniors for being 'top' student. And, that is, what I want to feel, the confidence, for my, upcoming A.'s. And the reason for trying my best. I dont want to end up in the toilet again, feeling like a helpless pathetic. The years in JC, taught me a bitter lesson. I have lost the reason, to excel and had brushed away these signs of failure so easily. I, had let others like the scholars to mock and ridicule people like me and i have myself to blame for not studying. To en, this, Good luck for your A levels people, and a quote,
"In, life, it is always a race. Whether you are behind or at the front, at the end of the day, you, realise, you have been racing with yourself"