Saudade

I hurt myself today to see if I still feel,
The needle tears a hole...The old familiar sting.
Tried to kill it all away
But i remember everything
WHAT HAVE I BECOME, My sweetest friends
Everyone I know goes away... in the end.


And you could have it all, my empire of dirt. 
I will let you down...
I will make you.... hurt.
I wear this crown of thorns, upon my liar's chair.
Full of broken thoughts, I cannot repair.
Beneath the stains of time, the feelings disappear.
You are someone else, I am still right here.

If I could start again...
A million miles away 

I would keep myself 
I would find a way