Big Mistake

Last night in the mosque a sudden wave of uncertainty washed over. There was immense guilt something I have never felt before and then my hands started trembling uncontrollably. As the Imam started chanting Astaghfirullah hal Azim a tear just splashed down from my eyes. Shocked. Cannot comprehend this unnatural feeling. Ya Allah, had I transgressed and done wrong? Raising my hands to seek your blessing that night was so hard with the trembling hands and I know not why I am so sad. It wearies me. Yes, maybe it is some psychological disorder but closing my eyes, taking a deep breath and then I sought for Your guidance. I know I had submitted myself to the whispers of Satan. Please guide me to the right path:,( “To you they swear by God to please you, but it is more fitting to please God and His Messenger, if they are believers. At-Taubah” Every cell in my body told me to act restrain and seek forgiveness. Everything feels so wrong ya Allah... It has to come to a decision. I am so sorry. It is so near Ramadhan... May this blessed month set my thoughts straight and control my nafsu if God Wills. I am so sorry. Wallahu Alam.