Today my life begins- Lessons in Life 4
Bruno Mars- Today my life begins
I've been working hard so long
seems like pain has been my only friend
my fragile heart's been done so wrong
I wondered if I'd ever heal again
Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (Ohh)
I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins,
a whole new world is waiting It's mine for the taking,
I know I can make it, today my life begins
Yesterday has come and gone
and I've learned how to leave it where it is
and I see that I was wrong
for ever doubting I could win
Thought this song is very nice. Alright ladies and gentlemen, the time has come to finally get a grip my life and blaze a path for others to follow. Had one of the most enlightening and heartwarming nights yesterday and the powerful message it brought to me, I just have to share it. Do you believe that all our actions will be repaid for? That the words that we speak and the hands that we move, there is going to be an equal and opposite reaction whether or not we will feel it or we don't. As the bible aptly goes: Do unto others as you want others do unto you (Luke 6:31). Last night was a terrible night for me and I have finally sunk to the lowest esteem. I am not perfect person, no one is, and I am not a fast learner either and I was sad. Wan is just the average joe who would rather run away when faced with a daunting predicament. Problem is, there isnt anywhere to run to. Anyways, back to the story, there I was, suddenly feeling so alone sitting in the night bus after a productive night study period at school- my thoughts were haywire and I kept staring at my phone... wondering if there is any soul out there who is willing to embrace me and tell me that everything will get better. Allah swt answered my prayers and that night, I witnessed a miracle.
My phone lit up and it was a text from one of my ponyo-ponyo buddy, Zhang Dong. And he was asking if I was fine. Any other day, I would be like "yea, sure handsome" but that precise moment... well, it was said at the perfect moment so yea, I held back my tears and told him of the undying stress that I had. He was not the kind of person I thought who would give you advice or sit and have a heart-to-heart but that night, praises to Allah, he spammed my inbox with 10 messages per minute, I barely had time to respond. "dont be sad lah, I love you", "Go study, you want to be my cleaner?". On and on, I just had to laugh at his childishness but caring at the same time. I was no longer alone:,) Then, the next person came into my life. It was Farizah, one of my juniors.
Farizah had been my Higher Malay classmate back in secondary school. She sat directly behind me and she almost always gets bullied by the other boys. Back then, I was a really reserved person and I never talked to her or anyone to begin with but now in Junior College, she have been great company really and we could relate each others problems pretty well. We talked about studying in school after Ramadan since she now knew I was staying back to study at night like her. And then, the next thing you know, we started insulting each other and then it got hilarious, something I thought I would not do to this old friend of mine hahaha. But she made my problems disappear, I almost missed my bus-stop :,) Farizah invited me to iftar with her and her friends which i politely declined since I wasnt close to her friends. I was never really invited personally to any of such iftar and this meant a lot to me. Allah knows how to lift your spirits when you are down. And to Him, we place our hope.
It did not stop there of course. Siyu's number came in. Siyu had always been there for me though recently after her break-up, she decided to be limit her conversations with me. She merely said two words: "Study Hard". I think that this was the period I started tearing up already. The fact that though she was not feeling well herself and to actually give words of encouragement:,) I have so many things to be grateful for in life. I am one REALLY LUCKY PERSON AND TO THINK NOBODY CARED FOR ME. We texted awhile before the 4th person came. It was Akshat Hans. Multi-texting using this old Nokia phone is very exhaustive really. We had not talked for weeks and Akshat told me he wanted to talk over the phone. I desperately wanted to hear his voice again and to get that offer, Ya Allah, Your gifts to me pale in comparison to what I have for You. Immediately, it was very nostalgic for me as I remembered back in the old days when he used to call me every night. We talked about life and about the latest news about the old friends we knew of for an hour when I finally reached home. Ahhhh, I am so grateful to have these wonderful people in my life.
Finally, to cap it all, Divya, one of my closest confidante who was my dance partner during orientation days came to bug me also. And normally, I would get annoyed and start pushing her one side but then, I stopped myself. That night, I realised unlike any other normal friends, she is willing to spend her time and effort to make me happy. She knows how to prioritise her friends, paying attention to those that needs her more. Whether through thick or thin, she is ready to annoy the hell out of me at any given time and place :,) I dropped by 7-eleven and bought for her gummy bears, because she loves them and its her supplements when she is having her periods or when she is sad. hahaha, my phone crashed and died from the overload of texts that night and I slept a fitful sleep.
All these wonderful people in my life... makes me realise that I take for granted a lot of things in my life. All these people imparted me with advice surprisingly, some said that I should kick away all other distractions and concentrate on my A's or that true happiness is understanding and patience. Wallahu 'Alam I should listen to good,sound advice by them. So that is it, my friends. We are never alone in this world. Prostrating, there are many things to be grateful for and all it takes is for us to take a step back and realise all that we have. A quote I heard, "Those who have nothing has Allah, and those who have Allah, has everything". A reminder that I need to impart on myself everyday. It has been the most interesting Ramadan so far and... yea. There are many things I regret doing for sure but today, my life begins for the better. Tonight, I declare myself a free... amoeba. For the greater good. Wallahu 'alam.
I've been working hard so long
seems like pain has been my only friend
my fragile heart's been done so wrong
I wondered if I'd ever heal again
Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (Ohh)
I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins,
a whole new world is waiting It's mine for the taking,
I know I can make it, today my life begins
Yesterday has come and gone
and I've learned how to leave it where it is
and I see that I was wrong
for ever doubting I could win
Thought this song is very nice. Alright ladies and gentlemen, the time has come to finally get a grip my life and blaze a path for others to follow. Had one of the most enlightening and heartwarming nights yesterday and the powerful message it brought to me, I just have to share it. Do you believe that all our actions will be repaid for? That the words that we speak and the hands that we move, there is going to be an equal and opposite reaction whether or not we will feel it or we don't. As the bible aptly goes: Do unto others as you want others do unto you (Luke 6:31). Last night was a terrible night for me and I have finally sunk to the lowest esteem. I am not perfect person, no one is, and I am not a fast learner either and I was sad. Wan is just the average joe who would rather run away when faced with a daunting predicament. Problem is, there isnt anywhere to run to. Anyways, back to the story, there I was, suddenly feeling so alone sitting in the night bus after a productive night study period at school- my thoughts were haywire and I kept staring at my phone... wondering if there is any soul out there who is willing to embrace me and tell me that everything will get better. Allah swt answered my prayers and that night, I witnessed a miracle.
My phone lit up and it was a text from one of my ponyo-ponyo buddy, Zhang Dong. And he was asking if I was fine. Any other day, I would be like "yea, sure handsome" but that precise moment... well, it was said at the perfect moment so yea, I held back my tears and told him of the undying stress that I had. He was not the kind of person I thought who would give you advice or sit and have a heart-to-heart but that night, praises to Allah, he spammed my inbox with 10 messages per minute, I barely had time to respond. "dont be sad lah, I love you", "Go study, you want to be my cleaner?". On and on, I just had to laugh at his childishness but caring at the same time. I was no longer alone:,) Then, the next person came into my life. It was Farizah, one of my juniors.
Farizah had been my Higher Malay classmate back in secondary school. She sat directly behind me and she almost always gets bullied by the other boys. Back then, I was a really reserved person and I never talked to her or anyone to begin with but now in Junior College, she have been great company really and we could relate each others problems pretty well. We talked about studying in school after Ramadan since she now knew I was staying back to study at night like her. And then, the next thing you know, we started insulting each other and then it got hilarious, something I thought I would not do to this old friend of mine hahaha. But she made my problems disappear, I almost missed my bus-stop :,) Farizah invited me to iftar with her and her friends which i politely declined since I wasnt close to her friends. I was never really invited personally to any of such iftar and this meant a lot to me. Allah knows how to lift your spirits when you are down. And to Him, we place our hope.
It did not stop there of course. Siyu's number came in. Siyu had always been there for me though recently after her break-up, she decided to be limit her conversations with me. She merely said two words: "Study Hard". I think that this was the period I started tearing up already. The fact that though she was not feeling well herself and to actually give words of encouragement:,) I have so many things to be grateful for in life. I am one REALLY LUCKY PERSON AND TO THINK NOBODY CARED FOR ME. We texted awhile before the 4th person came. It was Akshat Hans. Multi-texting using this old Nokia phone is very exhaustive really. We had not talked for weeks and Akshat told me he wanted to talk over the phone. I desperately wanted to hear his voice again and to get that offer, Ya Allah, Your gifts to me pale in comparison to what I have for You. Immediately, it was very nostalgic for me as I remembered back in the old days when he used to call me every night. We talked about life and about the latest news about the old friends we knew of for an hour when I finally reached home. Ahhhh, I am so grateful to have these wonderful people in my life.
Finally, to cap it all, Divya, one of my closest confidante who was my dance partner during orientation days came to bug me also. And normally, I would get annoyed and start pushing her one side but then, I stopped myself. That night, I realised unlike any other normal friends, she is willing to spend her time and effort to make me happy. She knows how to prioritise her friends, paying attention to those that needs her more. Whether through thick or thin, she is ready to annoy the hell out of me at any given time and place :,) I dropped by 7-eleven and bought for her gummy bears, because she loves them and its her supplements when she is having her periods or when she is sad. hahaha, my phone crashed and died from the overload of texts that night and I slept a fitful sleep.
All these wonderful people in my life... makes me realise that I take for granted a lot of things in my life. All these people imparted me with advice surprisingly, some said that I should kick away all other distractions and concentrate on my A's or that true happiness is understanding and patience. Wallahu 'Alam I should listen to good,sound advice by them. So that is it, my friends. We are never alone in this world. Prostrating, there are many things to be grateful for and all it takes is for us to take a step back and realise all that we have. A quote I heard, "Those who have nothing has Allah, and those who have Allah, has everything". A reminder that I need to impart on myself everyday. It has been the most interesting Ramadan so far and... yea. There are many things I regret doing for sure but today, my life begins for the better. Tonight, I declare myself a free... amoeba. For the greater good. Wallahu 'alam.
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