What hurts the most

     True man shed a tear they say and yes, I totally agree with that. A parody take by Ryan Higa called "shed a tear" (check it out on youtube) sums up the need for true man to cry. So really, what hurts the most? Do you feel at times when you just cannot hold back your emotions? When your chest hurts, and your mind sort of goes into this dizzy and aimless world of disbelief. Humans are born with emotions as do animals. The only difference is that we are able to comprehend this feeling and maybe do something about it.
  I still have both my parents alive and well although they do fight and quarrel just any other day. But I do know that if any of them were to just go and return to the Lord, I'd just cannot get over the memories accumulated since the day of my birth. I have this friend of mine who's dad had passed away quite recently and to her, it was like... big deal. People die everyday so suck it up. So that wouldn't be what hurts the most right? I lost my grandmother, Sanap Delam, when I was in Primary Four. Till now, I remember the silence in the hospital ward and the rain outside trickling down the night tracing the tears that flowed down the cheeks of the 15 of us crowded solemnly on her death bed. My uncles crossed her arms, watching helplessly as the heart monitor shows a faint beep followed by a straight line and then another hopeful beep. The loss of the matriach of the family brings back a cold to the heart like a lost chick losing the mother hen. That day, tears rolled down the cheeks of every man in the room including mine like a silent procession...
  However, my conclusion to what really hurts the most would be this: Is when someone you trusted so much and has a special place in your heart loses that trust for you or loses yourself completely. Just this year I had entirely placed my Chem Teacher as more of a close friend than a teacher and I'd go to his office to talk about life and just joke around. Then one day came when he threw me out of class for eating, although eating in class was kinda like a norm. That hurt me deep down in the heart needless to say. Then one of my bestest of friends, Akshat Hans whom I would talk more about soon had more often than not hurt me the most and continues to do so because he has a very, very special place in my heart too. This is the very reason why I do not really like to stick too close to anyone because someday, that person is going to hurt deep.